further on the bicycle journey…

As i biked down the street to my apartment today, i breathed in the lightning quick change of sun and rain that is common to this city, and gave thanks for being here, now. Portland has to be the best city to start a bike trip from. I was on my way back from a Bicycle Cooperative called City Bikes, where i bought two reused-bucket-turned-pannier-bags for the cost of one fancy pannier bag. and these are completely waterproof AND environmentally friendly, AND they will make perfect seats at the end of the day while camping.

exciting. i am also attempting to sell some of my musical equipment. i don’t know how i will ever replace it, but i know that i need the money to get everything i need for this trip.

there just doesn’t seem to be enough time to cheer for animal rights, write my papers, learn to hula hoop with more skill, breakdance, firedance, record my demo cd and be totally prepared for my show on the 22nd, and so on and so forth. why do i place so many obstacles in my path to doing a good job on something by making my interests so broad?

blargh! i don’t want to give these things up, either! i won’t!

off to read about jelly roll morton and then sleep and then class and then the acupuncturist tomorrow. and then a free class on chinese medicine!

birthday amongst strangers

i spent my birthday with total strangers. it was interesting to see how much fun that actually was. i made a few new friends and became involved with an animal rights group.

i also spent the day today thinking about my expectations for success. am i placing unrealistic expectations on myself that i will not be able to fulfill? my horoscope says so…

Bad luck for tell-tales ***
Valid during many months: Under this influence you could cause yourself considerable harm by making strenuous attempts to overcompensate for your weaknesses - for example by overdoing things or taking on tasks for which you are not yet ready. Demanding far too much of yourself is likely to lead to some kind of failure or disgrace, which will only serve to reopen old wounds. Less dramatic effects are also possible which nevertheless have the same root causes. You could, for example, feel that you are often your own worst enemy when dealing with others. Trying to appear strong when you actually feel weak could lead you into unpleasant situations. You will find it easiest to cope with this influence if you can admit that, unlike baron Münchhausen, you are unable to pull yourself out of the swamp by your own hair. No heroic feat of strength can undo old wounds. If you can recognize this you will be able to avoid the more unpleasant side-effects of this influence, but also to realize where bypassing old pain might have caused you to skip important stages in your personal development. Try to accept these uncomfortable feelings without overreacting. This influence will help you to find ways of healing old wounds connected to the physical and instinctive sides of your nature, or at very least how you can better integrate them into your life.
Transit selected for today (by user):
Chiron Square Chiron, ,
activity period from middle of March 2008 until beginning of February 2009

(that was courtesy www.astro.com)

so am i going to fail? what should i do here?)

splinterhoop!

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so i learned today that i kick ass at hula hoop. ok, that may be an overzealous exaggeration, but i definitely have a serious knack for it. it was my first time trying to hula hoop in my life (that i can remember), and i found out i was good at it. a whole group of photo students were there, watching me. they kept asking me to do tricks so they could take my picture, which was a lot of fun…

…except my hula hoop was really a wooden part of a glass window installation, and it had mighty square edges that liked to bite into my skin and leave very very nasty bruises. i can’t walk properly from spinning the hoop around my knees. the joints are swollen.

but i am good (not fantastic, but good) at something new and exciting to me! hula hoop!

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bicycle tour

i’m taking a self-sustained bike tour to SF from PDX in may. it is the 16th of march. i have exactly 2 months to get ready.

i need to prepare my bike so that i can carry everything. i need to sell some paintings to help ease the financial hurt. i need to apply for my passport so that i can keep moving. i also need to get everything here in order.

i found this article at http://seattlepi.nwsource.com/getaways/308288_bikeready22.html

Ride early and often to prepare for a bike tour

By JACK COX
THE DENVER POST

If you’re thinking of going on a bike tour this summer or have already signed up for one, don’t wait another day to start training.”The key is to get going early,” says Kent Powell, director of the week-long Bicycle Tour of Colorado, one of several multiday excursions on the state’s cycling calendar.

“People need to be riding a good amount each week — 20 to 30 miles in a day, starting now, and kicking it up to 50 miles on the weekend,” Powell says. “By May, they should be able to go 100 miles and get up the next day and do 75. If they can’t do that, they don’t belong on our tour, because our average day is 75 miles.”

Paul Balaguer, director of The Denver Post’s annual Ride the Rockies tour in June, also recommends a gradual increase in mileage. He tells riders to progress from 50 or 60 miles a week in March to 80 or 90 miles a week in April and 100 or 150 in May — as noted on the tour’s site, ridetherockies.com.

“I’ve never had a single person do that schedule and say it wasn’t enough,” Balaguer says. “You don’t have to follow it exactly, but as long as you’re building a base of mileage that’s comparable, you should be able to ride 400 mountainous miles in a week in relative comfort — not that it’s not going to be work.”

The point of going on long training rides isn’t just to improve one’s conditioning, notes Chandler Smith, director of the annual MS ride.

“It’s also an opportunity to familiarize yourself not only with your bike as a machine but with your body — to gauge what types of food and fluid you need, and how much,” Smith says. “This is an element that is equally as important as spending time in the saddle.”

As Balaguer puts it, “None of us is born knowing what we need to go 80 miles on a bicycle. I can tell you to drink a liter of water an hour, but you never really know what that means until you’ve been dehydrated.”

Another aspect of pretour conditioning is pacing, says Kate Mackey, a personal trainer who teaches cycling techniques in Broomfield, Colo.

“It’s important to get your body used to cycling, but you also want to adapt your cardiovascular system,” she says. “If you’re working at the right heart rate, you can create physiological changes that make your body more efficient at pumping blood and at using the oxygen. If you’re going too hard, or too easy, that doesn’t happen.”

So how can you tell, without wearing a heart-rate monitor, whether you’re spinning at the proper intensity?

“You need to be breathing so that you could say a sentence without taking a breath in the middle, but that’s about it,” Mackey suggests.

“I call it the ‘late for the bus’ feeling,” Mackey says. “You’re not going to sprint to catch it, but you’re going to walk fast enough that your heart rate is elevated and you’re breathing hard. That’s going to be 75 to 80 percent of your VO2 max (a measure of the body’s capacity to use oxygen) or about 3.5 to 4 on a 5-point scale of perceived exertion.”

In addition to taking care to pedal at an optimal rate, Mackey adds, it is helpful to do some off-the-bike exercises.

“Your core — your back, abs and side — is very integral to cycling but often ignored,” she says, suggesting crunches and reverse crunches.

In addition, the lower body will benefit from squats, lunges and similar leg-strengthening work. “But make sure you’re working your whole leg — the hamstrings, as well as the quads,” Mackey adds.

Finally, she says, “Anytime you’re riding, always reserve time to stretch at the end. It helps prevent injury, adds to your flexibility and enables you to go longer. You’ve used your legs, back, shoulders, arms and neck, and you need to make sure you stretch all of these.”"

and then the interviews…

a bunch of treesi think i may subconsciously be trying to sabotage myself. like… putting my own phone number down instead of a reference’s phone number so when the lady calls my references, she’s dialing… me!

haha… yeah, that wins them over every time.

i try to make friends. i have nothing. why do people not want to be close to me? maybe the answer is to truly be as distant as i am from them. just not talk at all. pretend i was sucked up into the void… or better yet: take every last drop of love i have been sending them and put it into the focus for what i want in this life for myself instead. haha…. not so noble, maybe… but then, who cares anyhow, right? like this bog… this wonderful faceless blog wherein i can type and type, and then almost no one will see this. and when some silly person does take the time to read it, it’s more like your older sister to snuck into your room to read what you’ve been up to… or better yet, her friends. or maybe even more apt: in desperation, your sister threw your diary in the dumpster… and there it is, for any soul brave enough to dive in and read.

i took the long hard journey

to portland. and here is the soundtrack to my life right now…

love and headcolds.

there is a cold threatening to take over my brain space. i am fighting the good fight. preparing to move again, oh fluctuation and change! i have been recently turning over the idea of love, it seems to be what everyone is so obsessed with right now.

i think that love, like revenge, is a dish best served cold. we should all just sit on it for a while, tend to our own personal development, and shut the F-word up about it all for a while.

i keep thinking, “what could i be doing to better myself?” instead of “why do people not value me?” why do i not value myself?

 ah, the random headcold-induced babbling.

the rainbow room